Tired of being treated like crap

I am always caring for people and in the process, I am always getting hurt.

Always caring how to make someone feel comfortable with me or around me. What to say what not to say. Watching their moods and speaking in accordance. Always acknowledging them. Always apologizing even when it is not my fault. Always agreeing with everyone in order to avoid arguments. Always thinking if I have offended someone. Always giving space to people when I see they might need it.

Walking on eggshells…

Walking on eggshells…

Walking on eggshells…

Why I am rejected or accepted by others at their pace? Why no one ever ask about my persistent silence? Why I have to be quick to reply so to prove that I am not rude. Why do I have to be vigilant of my word count in my emails? Why I am not allowed to even write? Why should I care if it is long or short? It is polite or hurtful? Do you care the same about me? Why my opinions always are subject to your disagreement?

When will people actually care for me? When will they care what I need? If I am in the mood of listening or not. If I need silence, a hug or conversation. If my capacity of dealing with stress is already consumed by my life and I cannot take any of yours. When will I be given space?

When will I ‘EXIST’?