NOVEMBER 12, 2015
Karachi is a city where having a car is a crime. You cannot park ANYWHERE. Well you can park in the paid parking but otherwise try parking it at home when you have to go somewhere. No matter where you take your vehicle, someone is offended and felt mugged of space. I am not joking, seriously.
I have recently joined a meditation group, which is located in Defence. It is situated in a house. The house is pretty big and with big boundary wall, one gets a lot of space to have parking outside. All the rest of the houses in the street are immense with vacant space outside their boundary walls.… READ THE REST...
All I hear, when I go out, is ‘you can’t do this; you can’t do that.
What is happening to people? What kind of rules are being made these days? Where is the logic?… READ THE REST...
Every time I complain how bad system is in Pakistan or how bad people behave or how reckless they are on roads, driving, riding, walking, so I have been told ‘it’s lack of education’.
‘Lack of education ? How come?… READ THE REST...
July 4, 2015
I don’t fast and I don’t pray. I am a happy secular soul. But I am a good human. Living in Pakistan and hanging out with people who fast till they drop while carrying no fasting myself bring people on me preaching me to make ‘pure’. (Most of the time not always.)
Just yesterday I was at Iftar dinner with some friends and with their friends.(Iftar is the food time at dusk for Muslims to redeem themselves from day’s starvation in the month of Ramazan / Ramadan.) A woman asks me, “So you are fasting?” (I don’t know why everybody asks this question here when the only answer they expect is in affirmation.
… READ THE REST... Yesterday I kinda made the best fool out of me by being over confident.
I have acted in TV plays and TV commercial from 2001 till 2003, and I have been thinking about getting some acting jobs again (due to my acute boredom with life). Well, yesterday I had a meeting with Mujahid, head of casting and planning at 7th Sky Entertainment in Karachi.
My arrival and departure both were in complete contrast. I entered infected with boosted levels of confidence. (I had been fully loaded with imagination of realistic acting and have thought, quite lately, that how difficult it could be to act.)… READ THE REST...
I have come to the point where I laugh at things that made me angry once. For example in Pakistan, people generally made me angry with their stupidity. Now I laugh how stupid most of the people are.
From 1991 till 2004, I sold my work through private shows. People in those days bought art and commissioned it regarding it art worth having. Then I stopped painting and had a dry brush from 2004 till 2012. I resumed in the end of 2012 and though I haven’t placed a show yet but have started selling through my website and network. But then I thought I have been painting for more than two decades, let’s get involved in art circle of Pakistan and see what’s happening.… READ THE REST...
I have been thinking of defining myself to a number of people who think I am an introvert. Luckily, just now I got it. I am an ‘anti-social extrovert’ .
This is because I am neither a kind of person who enjoys meeting people regularly (but I don’t mind once a month perhaps) nor I like staying at home everyday. Strangely, I love to be around strangers and hate the deserted lonely places. Then what do you call this condition?
When people called me anti-social and thought I didn’t like going out, I was very upset because it does not justify my status que.
… READ THE REST... Sometimes, I really wish to be in self-induced coma for a week for change. It hurts my head to keep dangling between beliefs and science, and people’s religious faiths and scientific prophecies. It makes me go crazy. I already have millions of things working in my brain ALL THE TIME. I don’t know why I have to think about the things that have several alternative answers (mostly just made-up.)
Today, since morning I just feel like soothing my eyes with the sight of open endness (means the sea.) Was just talking to EmQue telling her I was leaving for beach to enjoy the space in infinity.
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I think; I think; and oh man, I really think.
My hubby thinks I shouldn’t. He believes due to my thinking, I become unhappy. I don’t agree with him though. Thinking is the only way I reach to my answers.
Thinkers thousands of years ago densely thought and connected the dots only to land on the invention of science, physics, mathematics and astronomy. Don’t we have this modern world because of some people who THOUGHT?
WELL coming back to me… I was saying that I think deeply. (Not that I am equal to those great thinkers and philosophers, of course.)
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You can easily tell a western politician apart in public by his spine. They have special spines. They are either born with one or their mothers trained them to make theirs like this. The spine is highly stiff and normally ends at the top of the head instead of neck.
Western politicians walk and behave in distinctive manner due to their special spines. Notice how they are always stiff. Even if they bent or lean forward, they only bring their head forward. It is not possible for them to curve their vertebrae.
by xandria noir
Over the years many standards have been altered or perhaps compromised. I only have concerns about how people in Pakistan ranging from 25 to 40 year have started rating other people with high scores. In earlier days, quieter the person, the more observant and wiser he was deemed; now, more one blabs, more intelligent and knowledgeable he is.
Observing Homo sapiens of the Pakistani society in a social gathering is enjoyable and as well as painful experience for me. I have been noticing transition of sanity into stupidity. Girls or women take crack at impressing males with their pattern-exploded clothes and over sized accessories with overuse of unverified facts as conversation appetizers.Many people (if not most) evolve every few years. Their temperament, behavior, likes, dislikes, personalities change into better. They disregard what they regarded earlier. I have realized I am one of them. I have been changing into better human since I was a teen. I have looked for a step ahead every step. There have been drastic changes in me since I was thirty. Although I find myself much clearer now about a lot of beliefs I was forced into earlier, I am still evolving. This is the reason I have left behind all those that didn’t make sense.
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I wear simple classic cuts in clothes displaying the upscale modesty in my personality. Wearing neat attire is one of my many passions. Simplicity and elegance are two elements that I like to adhere to my personality. And I wouldn’t mind watching the works of same scale designers to inspire me.
I used to watch Fashion TV or Fashion One channel quite often in search of perfection and modesty but over the years this convention met seldom-ness and now dependable-lity of channel random switching. (and that also ends up with visual torture.)
… READ THE REST... People come with different preferences for family sizes. Large, small, compact – all depends on the outcome of personal experiences. I decided to have only one child due to reasons of feeling neglected being among many.
I come from a large family of six siblings. Can’t say if it was a blessing or penalty of something I said to God before my birth. I am the second in line. My eldest sister Samira, being the first one, automatically became the apple of my parents’ eye. I was too small but I still remember I expected the world to go around me and only me.
… READ THE REST... An opening of a new outlet of clothes in Pakistan opens a window for mockery that chirps the sonnet of insanity. People come, chatter, smirk, sway, sip and leave. Insanity in disguise. Cameramen with big cameras, over-polished anchors on the lookout for an interview, grabbing women with shimmering make-up and screaming clothes, and men with dazed quantity of hair gel and confused statue-of-liberty hairdos, and neatly placed snacks on flying platters. Glam and clam just don’t mix, so loudness is the requirement if you want to be noticed.
Girls would take enough time to make sure their lip gloss is shiny enough, top is revealing or clingy, shoes are spotless, mobile phone is fancy, accessories are blink blink, hair is blow dried, and on arrival, gait is flying with flirtatious whiff.… READ THE REST...
I don’t mind sitting at kitchen table and watching Fox News or OSN on my plasma and being served yummy food or just sitting there in an air conditioned atmosphere reading books or writing recipes but that’s all I like. I don’t like working in the kitchen. I am really thankful to my husband Wiki for doing all the veg-cutting, dish washing and ingredient-fetching from different corners because without all this, there is no way I can stir spoon in the pot.
For me, working in the kitchen is like working on a battlefield.
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My Digi Cable was out. Therefore, I had no American-English channels to watch. I was detached from my existence, vacuumed by the monster discreetly named depression, sitting in a dark room in despair after flipping through some local channels, those which are what I can call ….umm…foreign-NIZED music , drama and fashion channels these days. And I had no way out.
As I closed my eyes instead of giving the table in front of me a bolt of head bang, I remembered the days when we were entertained by THE only TV channel, PTV the great, which by the way succeeded in mesmerizing the nation in that tiny frame of time, as tiny as only six hours a day.
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